Respite

Respite - a brief period of rest and recovery between periods of exertion or after something disagreeable.

July is my respite month.   Sounds a little odd for a wedding planner to take a rest in the middle of summer!   I didn't book anything last year for this summer.   I turned away weddings because I didn't know.   I didn't know how my baby would be.   I didn't know how I would be.   I just didn't know.

The first half of the year was good.   We've adapted to being parents I think fairly easily!   We were blessed with a great baby and we really didn't see 1 AM or 3 AM that many times.

July is my month.   There is nothing special about the month as far as I'm concerned and probably never will again.   I just need to re-group and I think July is a great month to do that!

I am first a daughter of the King, second a wife to Chad, third a mother to Bronson and fourth I am a business owner.   I've been 1,2 + 4 before.   But now that we've thrown 3 into the mix I need to divvy out my time again.   I've got to design my life, who I am in all major four areas.   Who I am in many other areas of life.   Do I take on any other areas??   I have tons of questions that I need to sit down and take the time to answer.   Nobody can answer them for me, this is something that I've got to do myself.   And the answers will take time, that I haven't given them before.   Rest. Quiet. Alone Time.

Rest can very quickly be made busy.   As soon as I decided to take a break I thought of a million tasks that I could get done while I'm "resting".   True rest is going to take discipline.

I will still be a wife, mother and business owner ... just taking things a little slower and less tasks and lists and busyness until I rest.